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Hope in Job Searching

My job search in CA, among a few other places, has begun.

Searching in this economy is scary indeed. I’ve heard that it will be hard to find something. Some have even gone as far to say good luck finding anything you’ll probably end up working in retail or fast food.

I agree that I will need to be aggressive, think outside the box and rely heavily on my network, but I REFUSE to believe its hopeless. God provides in one way or another. I have learned that it might not look like I thought it would, but it will be what I need. I still think we are allowed to follow our hearts. We can dream. We can hope. We don’t have to take positions that will drive us into depression or the corner singing Jimmy crack corn.

I will admit that I do have some luxury over others in that I don’t have a mortgage. I don’t have to support kids. I only have to worry about me and believe me, my life is stripped down right now. There are few luxuries. It’s a tight ship.

But after two years of consulting and freelancing here in Ohio I know that I’m ok without a regular paycheck. I can look for other more risky situations. That isn’t something I would have said before I moved here. It hasn’t been easy. I have had to cut out a lot. But I’m ok. I have spent a lifetime doing things I didn’t want to do to be safe, cautious and secure. It’s not living. You have to follow your passion.

I’m not going to be ridiculous and wait for the golden egg, but I will NOT settle. I can’t. I’ve come to far. I reject all notion that I will fail. I’m saying it outloud, for me.

So the research has begun for cities thriving in the recession. I’ve even read that marketing management is  listed as a position in demand. So whi-hoo.

So if you hear of any good marketing positions, let me know.


Believing in Santa

I really missed Mikey and Jordy today.

I talked to them yesterday and Mikey thanked me in advance for my present via mail. He doesn’t believe in Santa anymore so he knows that adults buy the presents. Jordy on the other hand was sure that Santa would bring him his heart’s desire.

I wish I had that kind of faith. I instead rely on myself, become a control freak and end up disappointed.

But beyond that, what is my heart’s true desire. Do I even know anymore? I thought I did for a while but I’m beginning to doubt, maybe that’s the beginning of true faith? Letting go of my plan and embracing something bigger with total confidence, like Jordy.

Nothing like faith lessons from a 4 year old.

Joan of Arcadia and Lee Strobel

Ok, ok, I hear you.

You know God is speaking to you when you’re bombarded by the same message, idea, notion, etc from a variety of sources.

On Friday night as I was watching Joan of Arcadia, she was framed for something she didn’t do and was sentenced to community service. Things are already happening Joan, just accept the sacrifice. – God to Joan about situation.

What an interesting concept about injustices in our life. Who knows how that is rippling out to benefit other people. We don’t normally like to think of our lives in terms of how it’s a benefit for other people. We’re too busy in our our individual quests for self-actualization, progress and ambition to notice.

“So you think you had no effect? Seeing the results of your actions is not important, only the actions are.  Your work is out there, you just have to have faith.” God to Joan after the assignment.

We are simply called to be faithful. Aaahh faith, its an interesting concept, it means we have to trust in someone outside of ourselves and generally in something we can’t see or quantify. Yet often I just settle into frustration and and confusion because what I’m doing doesn’t seem to have an effect on anything.

“You feel frustrated and victimized and yet you’re still talking to me so somewhere you know this isn’t pointless.” God to Joan about feeling like a failure.

Friday was the last day of our youth conference and Lee Strobel (author of a Case for Christ) was there to encourage the crowd, to remind them that they make a difference. He told the story of a young man who was influenced by one professor that God could move in might ways in the church in 1970s, just like he did in Acts. The young man went back to his church and together with a few friends revolutionized their youth group by reaching out to their friends. Soon there were 500 kids coming, they rented buses to get there from miles away. In time they started their own church. That boy was Bill Hybels and the church was Willow Creek.

On their 25th year anniversary they rented an arena to celebrate. Upon entrance each attendee received key lights. At the end of the night they wanted to take a snapshot of everyone who had been saved through the ministry of the church and on a count of three they were going to light their keylight and take a picture. As they said three, one lone person ran to the middle and took a picture at the same fraction of a second that the photograph took his picture. It would have been unmemorable except the flash from that little camera showed up on the picture. It was a sea of lights and the one face you could see was the professor who inspired Bill Hybels to dream big. WOW! You never know how you are affecting other people.

Yet we’re results driven people. We like to see the fruits of our labor. We like to believe we’re not working in vain. Yet how often does God just ask to do something and we’re simply to obey even when we see no purpose.