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It’s November in Ohio. The trees have all lost their leaves. The sun is hiding more and more. The air is getting a bit of a bite. Soon there will be snow and the ground will go white. The change from the refreshing coolness and colorful beauty of the fall is tangible and causes a bit of fear. Will this be a tough winter? Are we ready for the change?
Like all good midwesterners, we take a deep breath and forge ahead. You can’t get around it, to get to spring you have to go through winter. There are lots of good things about winter though, warm fires, hot chocolate, ice skating, Christmas, snow days, snowmen. There is something about the change of seasons that lets you know time is moving forward. The world doesn’t stand still, even though you feel like it is sometimes.
A change of season means that you’re moving on. This is a new season of my life. The last four years have been long and challenging. It felt more like the winter of my discontent than anything. Yet, there were lots of good things that happened. I have come to love Ohio. I have amazing friends here. I have a church I love. I am about to step into a new season here.
As of January 2013 I will be going back to grad school, again. This time to finally do what I’ve been wanting to do since I was 16 years old, be a marriage and family therapist. The time is right. I’m excited, nervous, anxious and scared. Change is hard but exhilarating. I have no idea how I’m going to make it all work, but I’m ok with that. I know that God can figure out a way. Look at that, I have some faith and trust. See life does move forward and you are growing even when you can’t see it. Even when you don’t feel like you are.
I am also hoping that this new season means I’m going to be blogging more. I’ve missed it. I stopped in large part because I didn’t know what to say anymore. But I’m finding my voice again. This time its stronger. I believe in myself. I know what I’m able to do. I actually found some confidence. So nice. God is so good.
Change is also coming to this blog and I’m going to be rearranging things on the blog. So for those RSS fans sorry but old posts are going to be showing up in your feed, sorry in advance. I tried to disable the feed for a sec, but I can’t figure out how. So bear with me.
Thanks for being part of my journey.
My brother recently got me an iPhone, because he loves me and as a thank you for all the help with the children. I am so excited to have it. I am excited to abandon my perfectly functional yet “dumb” phone for this awesome, yet soon-to-be-outdated iPhone 4.
One of the best features of it is the ability to stay and be so connected to everyone. I can check-in places on yelp and Facebook. I can update my status and post photos. It is so fun. I love being able to carry my music everywhere. I am no longer embarrassed to use my phone.
I am also hoping it will help me blog more. I downloaded the wordpress app and am hoping It will help me not to feel obligated to write novels or wait for giant inspiration and instead be happy with small inspirations to share. We will see.
In the mean time I’m going to go download some more apps.
I started a new job recently.
I’m incredibly grateful for it. It’s been a bit since I’ve had a meaningful job. This job could really be something. Not only is it in my field (marketing) it’s working for an organization I whole-heartedly support. It’s awesome, but it’s also new. Newness scares me. New means unfamiliar. New means uncertainty. New means unknown expectations. This generally sends me into a frenzy of perfectionism wanting to know everything I can before I can move forward. I let it make me a micro-manager and doubt. Not a good space. Read the rest of this entry
Today was my last day at work before I move back to Ohio.
For the past six months I have been working a menial job. Yes, it is with some shame that I admit I have been working in retail. Yes, it was that bad. I worked in a woman’s clothing store. I had to kiss ass, measure sweaty old ladies for bras, and sell credit cards. Some of the things I have had to do still make me shudder and long for my happy place.
While it’s not been my favorite job there have been some surprisingly redeeming aspects to it. I have learned a lot about myself that I don’t know I would have learned anywhere else. For instance, I am shocked to learn that in spite of it all I am a people person. I actually like people. Who knew? Not I! As a certified introvert being forced to put on a happy face everyday did threaten to send me into a straightjacket on occassion but overall I enjoyed a lot of our customers. We had regulars that I got to know and looked forward to their visits. My favorite was a mexican customer that started bringing me home cooked meals when she learned I grew up in Mexico and missed the food.
I especially enjoyed helping people and participating in the preparation for special moments of their lives. Some of those moments were fun – going on cruises/vacations, attending a wedding, girls weekend to Vegas, and first dates. I also got to help dress women who were battling illness, suffering a death of a loved one, going to court, overcoming cancer and who’d lost significant amounts of weight.
Amazing how customers would open up over a dress, pretty blouse or while shopping for bras. I became their best friend for a few hours as I trapsed all over the store to find them the perfect outfit or accessory. I heard their stories. Sometimes we cried and I got lots of hugs. I loved it.
It wasn’t always a kum-ba-yah fest. Some people are just asses, feel entitled, treat salespeople like dirt, bring children in that trash the store, steal, demand illegal deals and pee on the floor in the bathroom. Kid you not. It’s not all glamorous and full of warm fuzzies. LOL.
I also enjoyed the people I worked with. We laughed a lot. I’m not gonna lie, sometimes we laughed at people. It happens, can’t help it. Sometimes people forget they are in public and other people can see them. But mainly we laughed to make a tedious job fun. We had to do something, our district manager was breathing down our necks to sell more credit in not so nice terms. If you didn’t make your goal then you were officially labeled a “bottomfeeder” by the company, seriously. This is how they motivated you, by publishing quarterly rankings with fun titles.
Even as I wax on poetically about the experience I’m not sad that particular chapter of my life is over. I’m looking forward to what is next but am grateful for the perspective that it provided.
I really thought this blog was dead.
I honestly had nothing left to say. So I took a hiatus.
A lot happened in the last year and at the same time I felt like I was standing still. I left Ohio. I moved back to California. I loved. I cried. I learned. I made mistakes. And yet, I didn’t write a single word. I’ve been on a sabbatical of sorts. I like that that idea. I just needed a break to recharge, reinvent, reinvest.
Now, I miss it. I miss processing my life through writing. So, the blog is coming back over the next few weeks. It comes at a time when I’m moving back across the country to Ohio, again. Yes. Back. No drama. No fan fare.
So we’ll see what this becomes, this time. The name is probably going to change. Not sure to what yet. If you have any ideas, let me know.